Had four months.....
...and then my AV talked me into one more drunk. Life had just gotten good. Felt good both emotionally and physically. The best in years. Now it's all lost. I keep hitting new bottoms.
The other night I embarrassed myself in front of one of the sweetest old lady in the world. (Thanks to my dog), When I say sweet, I mean the salt of the earth type of person. Very religious. The type of person who you would want as a grandmother. She has had me me over for supper in the past. Great cook. I was very embarrassed. My sense of self worth is at an all time low. I know her and her husband will forgive me but, I can't.
I need to start over. I know this in my heart and soul. It's gonna be very difficult but, I know it needs to be done.
Guess I need to Tweek my plan and, start again.