Hi Dunkelheit, I feel for you being in a bad place right now. I personally believe its the alcohol that has influenced your thoughts that you've lost interest in life and teared up over it. Been there. To your question about a few weeks of heavy drinking and coming out of it unscathed, for me, absolutely not. It was quite the party for the first 10-12 days, the next 10 days were living hell. The withdrawals scared the crap out of me, and although I had been reading this site for months, it was shortly after I actually created an account and started posting. It was one of the smarter things I've done. I'm not perfect, so take my thoughts with a grain of salt. Hang in there. Wishing you the very best.