cp4eva, I hope you are able to stay strong. Many of us have gone through exactly what you are going through. We are living proof that it can be done. Stay focused, avoid the HALT triggers (hungry, angry, lonely, tired), get to meetings as often as you can, and, if you are still struggling, come back and check out the chat room or post here.
Remember, you are not alone. We are right there with you. Good luck.
