Thank you! good advice, yes I think I really do need to get my head around why I went back to such excessive drinking. I can come up with loads of excuses; boredom, to help me relax, loneliness - but at the end of the day - these are JUST excuses and I need to take back control and accept that drinking for me makes me feel bad as well and hurts people I love. Enough! Day one bring it on !!!