Thank you everyone for your insight. I have had general anxiety disorder my whole life - drank my whole life - was born addicted - and started binge drinking at 4 years old to prevent my mom from drinking. So this old gray matter of mine has seen some crazy times.
I know depersonalization from lifelong panic attacks. But this was different. It was like left was right, and right was wrong, and technicolor ruled the roost.
I have been hitting the sugar pretty hard, to stave off these darn relentless cravings. And my AD should be in full swing now. I wasn't scared just more like - huh. Would you look at that ? No panic. No detachment. Just hmmmmm.
It might behoove me to see a neurologist to see just how bad the damage is.
Or maybe, some things are better left unknown ?
