I think that feeling is normal enough, KI. The farther away I get from my marriage the harder it is to remember what brought me to this point. My husband is a nice guy. Whenever I see him now he's sober, and on point. I could easily think I imagined it all.
The problem with that kind of thinking is that it can easily lead to negative thoughts. Thinking that it was all our fault. That we are somehow to blame for things falling apart.
Like Thomas45, when this happens I remind myself of the things I've seen. The things he's done. I have certain events that I go to when I need a "reminder". Things that no sober person would do. I don't dwell on them. I just use them as a gentle reminder of how difficult things use to be. That I had to do what I had to do. I really wasn't given any options.
What are you doing to handle these thoughts, KI?