I was placed into the hands of those
in a rehab hospital, facility, by my own
family because no one knew how to
care of me.
I was someone that was sick in mind
and body who tried to end my failure
of a life as a mom and wife.
It took the authorities to pick me
up under a court order to take me
to the hospital for a mental evaluation.
Yes, I was tested and my mind was
fine. However, I was told I had an
addiction problem. A sickness that
could be treated with the use of a
recovery program that they would
teach me.
Since I didn't have a mental problem
I was able to open my mind, my ears,
listen, learn, absorb and apply some
valuable useful recovery steps and
principles to incorporate in my everyday
life.
28 days in rehab gave me a good
start or launching pad to begin living
my life one day at a time without
alcohol that was killing me.
I couldn't begin to stay sober by myself
because I tried so many times and failed.
I took me to surrender. To completely
surrender my will and life over to those
who could teach me how to live life sober
for those first 28 days and when I returned
home to my family to live life on lifes terms.
No one will tell you that it is easy
in the beginning. In order to achieve
what so many of us have today, that
happiness, contentment, healthy,
serenity, honesty, etc, is the daily
work we put into our recovery.
It's doing whatever we need to do
to remain sober that day. It's
following suggestions that many
pass on to us, its going that extra
mile, all to the best of our ability
to remain sober that day.
I had to keep putting one foot
in front of the other, driving myself
to meetings that lasted one hour.
One little hour listening to others
speak about recovery to pick up
one little something that I could
take home with me and would give
me hope to remain sober.
If so many learned to stay sober for
as long as they have then I wanted
that too. If they learned ways to be
healthy, happy and honest in all their
affairs then I wanted that too.
I wanted more than anything to
be able to live life in peace and serenity.
They suggested that I grab a hold
of this recovery and hold on tight
for the ride of my sober life and I
did. I held on tight not loosening the
reigns as my life depended on it.
Today some 24 yrs sober, I pass on
to you that there is hope for anyone
willing to hold on and listen, learn,
absorb and apply a recovery program
to achieve what I have achieved along
with many many other members in
recovery have achieved.
If we can get where we are today
then there is hope for you and others
out there who want to be sober or
clean more than anything else in
this world.
Surrender, willingness an openmind,
heart and soul for happiness, healthy,
serenity and peace of mind.
