I'm drinking now because I depended on these programs too much.
I don't think this is true John.
I think you're drinking , at least partly, because you've convinced yourself you need a specific set of circumstances to get sober.
There is no end of support here, and it's 24/7.
I know you crave real personal interaction and I get that - but drinking is not going to bring that possibility closer - it's actually going to push it farther away.
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