Hope
Met a psychologist yesterday and she taught me relaxation exercises. Really didn't think it would work.
I lay down on the couch and put very low level 'white noise' on the tv. I managed to lightly doze until 3am. Woke up briefly every hour though.
Then got deeper sleep from 3 to 7am.
Wow. There is hope!! Didn't use Xanax or Valium either.
Still woke up with a ball of anxiety in my belly but I guess this is a process and not an overnight cure.
Thanks to all for listening and contributing.