Originally Posted by
Nerina 
Welcome! I'm new here too. Only on my first day. I can relate to what you say about sitting alone drunk and start texting/messaging people. I'm almost scared to check facebook and messages after a night like that.
Hi Nerina, thank you. I bet we've both embarrassed ourselves terribly online - well I know I have - publicly, and in private messages to different people. I shudder with fear at the thought that people may have decided to screenshot what I wrote and keep that handy for some special day.
So far I am doing well, 5 days without drink. I don't want to say that I will never drink again - but I don't want to repeat my destructive behaviors. I won't have a drink until I've figured out a plan to prevent them from happening. Right now I am not at the stage where I can have any drink at all in the house, even as something to offer guests - too much pull on my mind.