I just got the most devistating news this morning, literally just seconds after I posted on the newcomers about my formal plan. A very close friend, whom I consider a brother, died. It's so sad, and I'm all by myself, I'm just waiting for my husband to come home. The world works in mysterious ways, because my post just may trump drinking, so to speak. As sad as I am, I know that I cannot be drinking, I have to be strong for the family, especially for my husband. This man has been his friend since grade school, and now he is gone. I found myself thinking that I don't care and if the opportunity to get drunk with grieving friends, to have a happy party comes up I will join right in....but I won't. I have to add this to my formal plan, and keep moving. Its a heartbreak kind of day.