First test.
Woke up to 8 days sober today after finally able to get a good nights rest last night, this morning I felt more focused, more alive.
Anyway, it wasn't until after class when a desire to drink washed over me. Bothered me so bad, I flew home...I'm here now and currently trying to understand what I'm feeling.
Earlier, my class did a table read of one of my scripts that I've been working very hard on (even while doing my best to stay sober) and the feedback I received was incredible. Lifted me up to a place I haven't felt in awhile...my instructor even said he was so impressed and gave me a critique so good, Im more inspired than ever to keep working hard.
This is supposed to be a great thing right? So why when class was over did I want to run to the liquor store and "celebrate" what happened today? And alone? This feeling brought me to my knees the second I got into the house. Feeling anxious and confused. I hope this makes sense to someone. Has anyone been here before?