Originally Posted by
neednewpath 
My question is, when does this battle in my head quit?
From what I can gather, never. The solution is to teach yourself new coping mechanisms to deal with things like this. Generally, when something stressful happened, we'd instantly revert to the bottle for a few (dozen) drinks to relieve the stress / anger, right?
That needs to change. Go swimming laps in the pool, punch a boxing bag, go for a walk, read a book, hit some balls at the golfing range, listen to some music that puts you in a good mood, have a bubble bath, or whatever.
Maybe I'm wrong, because I'm not there yet, but I believe that's the key to long-term sobriety. Being able to develop new coping mechanisms for any situation that may arise.