Cozmik - it's so good to meet you. Beleive me, we understand what you're going through.
I was drinking before work and at work at the end of my drinking career. I did it so I wouldn't shake or be sick. It was a horrific way to live. I knew I couldn't continue or I'd die. It was actually a relief to say 'never again' and to get free.
You can do it! Keep posting.
