Guys I drank a half glass of wine at dinner 10 days ago after tasting food in champagne.
I really wanted to do it. It felt risky and like I was having fun. I also accepted a glass of wine. I wanted to fit in. My 103 days sober seemed like more of a burden than an accomplishment.
Av started about 5 days before that. I had 3 encounters with friends separately and all 3 were drinking. 2 encouraged me to join in and I resisted.
But when I went out with work i drank. I wanted to be part of the crowd enjoying the night. None of them knew I wasn't drinking.
I took a sip of the wine and I didn't like it and I didn't finished the glass. The cravings are now back, it feels like week 1 again.
Positives are I didn't get drunk, I'm back to day 10 now but I'm proud I didn't get drunk.
I just gotta learn from it.
I'm a classic people pleaser, I'm learning to do what's right for me.
Hope you are all doing well. I'm gonna check out the May group and think about joining in there to keep focused