Good morning all,
Well today is the start of day fifty nine. The sun is out. It is still freezing, but at least it is not all doom and gloom. I am remembering now how depressing Europe was in winter and why I spent all my time there drowning my sorrows. No offence to anyone, but if you are used to the sun - overcast weather can be downright miserable and depressing. Well to the business end.
Physically I am good. I slept well. In fact I slept so well I did not want to get out of bed. Sleep continues to come easily. I don't remember this ever happening when I was drinking. Sure, I could pass out, but that is not the same thing. Surprise - no headache this morning. I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I have cut back a lot on my smoking. I also don't drink any caffeine at home. I am starved this morning - not sure why.
Mentally I am fine. My mind is in a lot better place than yesterday. The weather really has a lot do to with it at this stage. Dark, gloomy weather is just not for me right now. I don't have much work that I know of today - I am not complaining.
Emotionally I am fair. As those of you who have been following this thread know - my wife and I are separated and are not really on speaking terms. Her decision. She needed to find herself. You may have noticed that I have not been so cheerful lately - well I am only human. It is her birthday today, and this has been weighing down heavily on me. Do I contact her? Do I just leave it? What to do. In the end, I just sent her a message. With the mood swings, you can imagine that my sense of humour is sometimes dour. If I do offend or I am not always on form, I apologise.
Well it is bitterly cold outside. Not so at home. Unfortunately I have to be at work. Trust me, if I could do this from home - I would.
Time for coffee and one of those savoury pie things, I reckon. A treat to me from me.
Be safe and be strong.
Cheers,
ZAB