I hate how ill I feel all the time. I wake up feeling nauseous and tired. I binge eat a lot during the day to try and take away this problem. I am thankful that I haven't got to the stage of drinking during the day, although it does cross my mind I can usually ignore that. I have high blood pressure which I am convinced is linked to my drinking and also experience heart palpitations a lot now. I ended up in A&E a few weeks back because of horrendous stomach pains. They never got to the bottom of it but I was convinced it was drink related. I am too ashamed of how much I drink to be honest when they ask. I feel like I am slowly killing myself but feel powerless to stop!