Thank you all for reading that long post of mine and replying with kindness and support, it means so much.
Yes, my emotions are all over the place. One day weepy, the next firmly planted in reality and looking forward to returning to the freedom that I was truly starting to enjoy. I was feeling increasing wisps of contentment, happiness and optimism again. Then he contacts me and I am wallowing in the nostalgia of what was good, grieving the loss of what I thought would be and what I loved so much about him. And yes, questioning my decision, wondering if it could have been otherwise.
But the little contact I have had with him is reminding me of how immature and