Hi SA,
Welcome. This site is a fantastic resource if you want support to quit drinking. You have quite a few red flags
Morning drinking- normal drinkers wouldn't consider it
Hiding your drinking/ being secretive- if you were drinking normally you wouldn't feel compelled to do this
30 beers and a bottle of spirits over 2-3 days- normal drinkers wouldn't and couldn't tolerate this.
The major red flag is the morning drinking. I chugged along for tears drinking far too much but once the morning drinks came in my world became all sorts of twisted. You do not function normally under any circumstances if you drink all day, you may feel ok but others will notice. I wish you well, you are definitely in the right place. X