OK, Not looking to rile anyone here but.. Isn't externalizing your desire to drink and blaming it on "The Beast" pretty much the same as blaming it on your "Disease". Which one can do you think can do more push ups in the parking lot?
Sorry. I actually do understand AVRT so no need to explain. A lot of it makes sense but it's just something that popped in my head.
I've researched many recovery methods and most have their points. The thing is I just learned by getting badly burned sooo many times not to put my hand on the stove. It hurts! Maybe I'm just getting old and tired. My beast has about as much energy as this 14 year old cat laying here next to me on the couch.
Good luck with your journey!