Originally Posted by
Scram 
I am - for whatever reason - scared to death of being defined by what I cannot do.
You are loss averse, and that is quite normal. Losses hurt more than gains feel good - just about twice as much on average. In other words, losing $100 feels twice as bad as finding $100 feels good.
The part you are missing from your
what-I-am-losing equation is the big gain at the end. I was a slave and now I am free. I would never consider sacrficing my freedom again just for a couple of drinks.
You are holding the winning lottery ticket, and all you can think about is that you lost a dollar buying it.
Build a sober life and see if I'm wrong. You can always give it back and take up drinking again if you don't like it. I'm betting you won't though.
Best of Luck on Your Journey!
