Yup and the worst of it was waking in the morning racked with guilt, shame and regret. Without even knowing why at first, just vague memories of saying something I shouldn't. Then slowly trying to piece it altogether, reading text messages through fingers, opening emails, messenger, forums, anywhere I may have spread my drunken nonsense - with a deep sense of dread. CRINGE. That was one of the deciding factors for me in the end. I just couldn't handle that terrible weight on my back anymore.
Well done on your 150+ days!
