You are doing beautifully, Pouncer, despite that demonic AV and seemingly endless PAWS. Pouring that bottle of wine was a huge accomplishment.
You will eventually reach the point where the good days outweigh the difficult ones; you will get there but that time will be only a stop along the way. The destination is so incredibly satisfying, Pouncer - you will have worked hard for it and you will be rewarded with a kind serenity and fulfillment quite unlike any other. Sobriety and recovery are unbelievably wonderful. I promise.
Hang in, Pouncer.