I've thought about that...but in the end I think there were a lot of very mundane reasons for my addictions, Jack - heredity, disability, anger and frustration mixing with high sensitivity and a certain degree of intelligence...
I know that's very boring lol - but there it is. Maybe its because there were no bright lights, or friends to greet me...just...nothing.
I think, if there's a way those NDE played into my addictions, it was probably a certain recklessness...I simultaneously thought I was invincible while also not minding if I died, which is kind of a neat trick if you think about it?
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