Aeryn-
I could not get myself out of the relationship with my loved one, but I did have the ability to say no to kids (even though I had always wanted them). I don't regret that decision, but I do regret that I was not honest with myself or my partner at the time of the "why" I did not want kids.
I am leaning toward adoption. I have been working hard this last six months with a financial planner to make sure that this is something I can do (without kicking in my work a holic tendencies). I also have some decisions to make about where I live.
I am interested in how this journey goes for you.....