Originally Posted by
eastboundndown 
So I guess there are two parts of this question:
What are my goals now? I can't very well make it a goal to find someone to love because, let's be real, it just doesn't work that way.
I can't tell you what your goals should be. But I can say that as long as you use, you won't achieve anything beyond the drug-driven hamster wheel you are running around now. So make you goal getting and staying clean and sober and a world of opportunities present themselves.
Originally Posted by
eastboundndown ...and second, with me being powerless over these drugs, how does one empower themselves?
You are powerless over drugs, not powerless over working the recovery you need to get your life in order. You're mired in the past, mired in the safety of your drug use. You're not powerless over getting off your duff and doing something about it...but it becomes a handy excuse to do nothing.