ZAB, glad to hear you are staying strong and keeping your pecker up!
That's an important part of the game.
I for one had to eliminate any chance of drinking again. After way too many day one's I finally made it a solid 9 months back in 2013. I always left the door open to drinking again; even though I told myself that I probably wouldn't. "Probably" being the operative word.
A day came when on a scalloping trip I said ok to my AV since I had never thrown in the towel completely. I still remember that beer. It took the better part of the next year and a half to get myself back. I progressed into drinking in the mornings and at work. Somehow, I was able to convince myself that my actions were warranted, justified and completely normal.
After that experience, I know there is no more "probably" in my sober vocabulary.
Stay strong ZAB! You are doing great.