Zab - I remember reading your very first post here and thinking to myself, this guy is going to make it. Why? I cannot put it into words, but I can usually tell by the tone of someone's post whether they are serious about sobriety or whether they are just "kicking the tires". So, congratulations to you on your 50 days - that is wonderful. Keep up the good work.
I noticed you posted up thread about recent relapses. I can smell a relapse coming on (usually) from the way people post too. It's like they are priming the pump (and you don't have that smell).
Stay strong.
CF