Zab I think when I first quit I entertained thoughts that maybe after say three months I might feel like I would have reset the the clock and could maybe have the occasional drink like a normal person but pretty soon reading posts on SR disabled me of that notion. Now after 4+ months sober I am painfully aware that I cannot drink "normal"
I'm know it's the same for others in early recovery because I have read their posts and like them I sometimes feel a deep loss that I can't drink (like the bank holiday weekend just gone). The good thing is that people who have been sober a long time don't miss it and to be fair neither do I for 90% of the time.
Thinking about "normal" drinking is just a comfort blanket
Hey, all this talk of peckers being kept up - I live in London's East End, home of cockney rhyming slang. I have two words to say on the subject. Hampton Wick