I have tried to stop many times as well, I stopped diring all three pregnancies, and then after the third slowly started increasing again. I ended up stopping for three months a few years ago, and then started again. I am on day 8 now, and plan on making this time my last time having to start again. It is certainly not easy, but somehow we managed to function with jobs and families while drinking, so surely we can do this! Good luck, glad to be on this journey with you.