I fought my husband hard, struggling
to keep him away from me, kicking,
screaming, clawing my way away from
him as he tried to haul me to the car
to take me to the hospital to get my
stomach pumped after taking a handful
of pain pills several or so hours earlier
to call it quits on life.
I had thrown up all that was in my
system and saw no need to go get
my stomach pumped at the hospital
so I fought him off.
There was no way in h*ll I was going.
It took a court order and law enforcement
to come pick me up and drive me to the
hospital to be evaluated for my mental
state of mind. Come to find out, I wasn't
crazy because they had me tested. However,
I was told I had an addiction to alcohol and
with an effective recovery treatment in a
rehab facility would be a good start to learning
how to remain sober a day at a time.
If I fought my way out of going to get my
stomach pumped then I surely would have
ran away quickly if I knew they were putting
me in rehab for my addiction without a court
order.
When the police came to pick me up, I
had to walk pass my husband and father
in law and with daggers in my eyes and
the devils voice, I told them both that I
hated them before I was escorted to the
backseat of a handless police car.
How humiliating. How angry I was. I was
so pizzed off that my family did this to me
that all I think of was to spit fire. I stared
forward as the 2 officers sat in the front
seat with a screen separating us. Was I a
criminal? Could I hurt anyone?
No I wasn't a criminal. But, yes, I could
and did try to hurt myself. No one in their
right mind would continplate leaving behind
a little family and 2 awesome little ones if
they weren't sick. And that I was but didn't
realize how bad off I was till I tried to end my
life.
Today as I reflect back on that dark time
in my life, I am truly grateful that my family
did that intervention on me, seeking help
and answers to help me get healthy again.
I don't think I would have stayed sober
for a long period of time like I have without
the help of my family placing me into the
hand of those to teach me about my addiction.
To stay in a controlled inviroment for 28 days
teaching me the AA program of recovery
consisting of steps and principle to guide me
thru life each day I didn't drink.
My will never worked before to stop
drinking until I turn my will and life
over into the Hands of those who could
help me. My HP and doctors.
24 yrs sober strong today.
