Hi 1992....thanks for posting.....I'm also a child of alcohloic parents.....who were neglectful, violent to each other, and embarrassing. When you think of trash....that's who they were. I know they were sick....but I haven't forgiven them and I don't have too. I've definetly suffer thru my adulthood because of them...and I'm still getting over it. Practice lots of self love. As for the anti depressants I echo alpha. Last year I had a very bumpy year......my Prozac was increased and I was just put on a mood stabilizer ........ I probably always needed these drugs so that I can change my thought patterns. I feel fantastic for the most part and I'm treating myself v well. I still have a habit of judging myself too harshly I think. I'm working on that. And I'm not drinking.