I remember years ago I used to try to control my addiction, I loved that warm little buzz from just one drink, but you're right, it didn't last long enough. so I drank a little bit more, then a little bit more. That feel good little buzz eventually turns into agony. You have an addiction that is progressively getting stronger and your health is deteriorating. You can do this..ride out the cravings, one day at a time. You will see the benefits of not drinking very quickly!