Hey thomas11,
Don't take this the wrong way bro.. But from the way you type when your drunk you remind me of a friend of mine. So you must be fairly young. He used too drink and whilst drinking became quite cocky in a sense and always thought he was unbreakable. It was always the next day or week when he was in bits and couldn't deal with it.
He also got a himself into lot of **** the more he drank because his attitude became 'i don't give a ****/I do what I want' attitude. One morning he got dropped home with glass wounds too his head and his gd had too take him too ER.
The next week he spent in bed feeling like ****!
So ask yourself... The next 10 days you can relax, appreciate life, appreciate your wife, appreciate your kids. Or pick up that bottle and risk losing it all.
Just have a real think bout it brother