[QUOTE=thomas11;5383408]Really? can you elaborate on that?[/QUOTE
You wrote this--->" Very close to saying adios motherf*ckers or trying to capture all the crap that has become my life. Its a coin flip at this point."<---
That is why you aren't "fine" my friend.
You seem to be headed down a self destructive road soon (when your wife leaves especially ) and you go from posting that you are essentially in dire need to "being fine"
I've lived this desperate cycle before. It sucks. Do whatever it is in your power to NOT drink and set yourself up for an inevitable failure when your wife leaves.
Get the ball in motion now. You can do this.
Quit drinking.