I've been at this same point a few times over the past 3 years. I quit many times and relapsed many times. Weeks, months and finally today, 14 1/2 months sober. I've wanted to throw in the towel so many times but I knew that deep down inside, there was still a strong man who could conquer this beast. Be bold, be strong, be determined to kick this mother's ass. You can do it.