I just read a post of yours on another thread. Anorexia, neuropathy, fearing a fall in the shower. Sounds very much like me at the end.
You said medical detox isn't an option. Is that by choice or because of insurance? If by choice, I'd think again. If not by choice there are low or no cost options. How long do you think you will be able to function at all at this rate? Seriously. You won't be able to. Your life is more valuable than work.
I hope you dumped what you had or at the very least, you didn't go out for more.