Thank you NYmets. I appreciate it. I sort of feel like being a hermit now. Although I did think okay I made 90 days, I showed myself I could do it, so why not take a break and drink just today. :-| sigh. It will be nice if my brain didn't do this to me! Just need to focus on one day at a time and specifically, getting through this day. I'm thinking of changing jobs because it creates so much stress that I feel pushed to drink which is why I typically drank every day during the week and took weekends off (opposite of most people I think!) ... I need a nice, easy "recovery" job ... but then again isn't every job stressful. I don't know. I just feel pushed to the brink almost every day anymore.
Well just need to focus on getting through this day.