Geeze MMB there must be a really good reason(s) your here today.
I know myself I'm not suppost to be here today.
I dont really have a good "last drunk" story i got lots of stories but not really a last one. myself.
I was just at my wits end. the cigarettes did nothing for me the booze wasnt helping. I was having panic attacks all the time and nothing would calm it down. waking up needing a drink. Having to drink till pass out just to go down at night and wash down a couple sleeping pills and a few ibprofins so that i woudlnt wake up at 3 or 4am desperatly needing another drink. That was my life for the last couple years of drinking.
Somehow I'm here too. I desperatly wanted to be dead but i was always too much of a coward I guess to just take matters into my own hands. I guess I just was committing passive suicide with all the crap i was putting into my system.
Now i wake up ready to face another day. I dont wish for death anymore. and I dont wake up feeling like death either.
"I'm not even suppost to be here today"- Dante from clerks