wow. how quickly you lose real support.
From what you posted it seems you gave up after one phone call and then blamed
THE WORLD for your problem. Does the addict living in your head let you comprehend how ridiculous that is?
I've been fully under the thumb of my addiction before. It's a horrible place to be. I didn't realize just how horrible until I escaped. I didn't know I was a slave until I was free.
Make another call.