Hey friends,
Sorry I went AWOL. I am still sober and on Day 31, although I had some close calls.
I have been dealing with a flood of PTSD symptoms and it has pretty much consumed me over the last two weeks. My p doc put me on a limited amount of Ativan - I felt uncomfortable about it but because they have a high potential for abuse. I was in severe crisis, he insisted. I still feel guilty about taking them. I was hyperventilating every night and not doing well.
I see him in two weeks for a follow-up and am still looking for a compatible therapist who specializes in trauma.
I hope I can get caught up on everyone's lives here at SR tomorrow.