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courage2 P.S. AO -- I'm not trying to knock you or give you a hard time. I started a fantasy relapse. I gave it a good foothold. I played with it & toyed with it -- if you'd asked me, I would have said I was struggling with cravings, but in fact I was indulging alcoholic thinking. Because I liked to think about drinking, because I wanted to be drinking. I own that now, 100%. I wanted to be drinking.
So I drank.
Cravings & thoughts aren't the road to relapse, but in my experience, obsessing is. You can't control a passing thought, but you can let it pass, or choose to recall it.
No worries C Dog. You can tell it to me straight anyday.
I hear you. I am owning my nonsensical thinking that's why I'm confessing my sins publicly. I know where this is headed if I don't fly straight. I have come so far, and yet, the old record keeps playing on replay.
Alcohol It's what I know. It's what I do. Well, did.
I'm redesigning my 2nd act.
Right after I get these Swedish Fish at intermission.
All I have ever really known, (as far as how to live this life) has been while drinking.
It comforts me to know, it's just a matter of time and redirecting before it becomes second nature.
Until it does though, Imma stay put. Right here.