I can absolutely relate to your post. My AV seems to really take advantage of the beautiful weather and feeds on seeing all the happy crowds in beer gardens. 'How come, you're never gonna have a beer on the patio, enjoying the sunshine? C'mon, I know this time it will be different!'
And this is when I need to remind myself - this is not what my drinking was like. It's all just fantasies and lies, cause this voice never tells the truth.
Stay strong AO. We can do this.