Old 05-16-2015, 04:57 PM
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murrill
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I still remember: I know how it feels to wake up without any recollection of last night's events, fearing what I might have done. I remember being in near panic mode until I bought a week-end's worth of liquor. I remember the shame, the frustration that I had broken another promise to myself, that I had become unlovable. I believe what others have told me: It is easier to stay sober than it is to get sober. I swore I would stop so many times but didn't , so I am convinced there are no guarantees that I would get sober again. I have an investment in sobriety. I've known what sobriety can bring, and I'm not willing to risk losing that for one episode of questionable "pleasure" I might seek in a drink. After 26 years, I still know I cannot handle just one.
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