Scared & don't think I am capable
Hi guys
After my recent slip, I'm going to a lot of face-to-face meetings and I have planned them out to work around my new job which starts on Monday.
I'm just scared. I know I'll be good at this job. But things went so downhill when I was drinking and I can't seem to get past those thoughts of, "I'm going to screw it up". It's making me feel awful even though I haven't even started!
I just haven't ever been a responsible person that's kind to myself. It's not like I've been that person and got sidetracked, but I'm 27 and I have never had that experience. It scares me and I don't know if I can do this. Well, I know I can. I didn't think I could be sober, and I am, so these things are possible.
I don't know, this is my favourite place to get things out and I'd really appreciate any words from all you lovelies that have repaired their lives and/or started a whole new one!