In some ways it would be easier if he didn't need you but you know that's not the case. Sometimes I want to stop trying and give up but I don't and I think it's because I really want to be happy WITH them. It's not always about being there for them. Though I think they'll need us well into adulthood - but I want to have some good, sober, fulfilling times with them. I have 4 kids. Oldest are 13
My son needs me now (though I'm not sure he'd admit it) and he'll need me later. If for nothing else then to be the one person who will love him no matter what.
He needs you
You're worth it
Get it together for both of you