Originally Posted by
mecanix 
I always found it too tempting to compare my internal life as to how others were presenting their external life , i kept coming up short in my eyes .. A lot of people treat it like self promotion and use it as a mirror of illusion to show themselves to themselves in a good light .
I totally agree with this.
Originally Posted by
mecanix As a rhetorical question What do you want to do now your sober ? who would you like the sober you to be ? What things would you like to do ? How you going to get there
Excellent questions M. I am really just now trying to address these things. I have been for all practical purposes drunk for the past 14 years or so. I am finding it a bit difficult to return to my old hobbies and interests now. Maybe I am too new to sobriety yet. I do hope that my interest and enthusiasm returns. Right now I am white-knuckling and it takes my energy.