I went to the place I hide that awful substance this morning and went to the front flowerbed and poured it out. I have made it 2 days many times to fail at 3. That seems to be the trend with binge drinkers. My first goal is to make it to 3. That includes a weekend. O well. The time has come to get better. I am so tired of embarrassing myself and letting down those who matter most. Thanks for the support.