Thanks all.
I'm not really sure what kind of help to ask for. Probably not ready for a sponsor.
Phone numbers would be nice. My pattern is buying wine on the way home from work and then drinking at night. I wake up and resolve never to do that again and by the end of the work day I have literally forgotten my problem. Either that or I tell myself this is the last night.
In the morning I know that's a lie. In the evening I think that is the truth. So, I guess if I had numbers to call on the way home it would help a lot.