Ready, thanks for that. I know I'm being irrational in thinking that they'll care. And you are 100% right that the ONLY way people will remember is if I do something so stupid that it becomes the butt of all the jokes.
It's really just coming down to the idea that the unknown is a bit scary. Like I've been tested around friends, coworkers and family since really trying to get serious in February, but going out of town with my brother and then a bunch of acquaintances will be a lot different. Ultimately, I don't really care if they don't even notice I'm there, haha. Just do the planned dinners and golf outing, skip the day at the beach and the bars. I just can't seem to shake the idea that they'll be all in party mode and apply peer pressure and then rather than fight it, I'll just give in and try to moderate.